Today I participated in a serious act of rebellion.
Let me back up. I have decided that I am going to put as much as I can into doing well at school this semester. I will get good grades and I will not hate my classes. I will have a good attitude, I will stay caught up.
This week, I had two tests and a quiz, which I’m not complaining about, just mentioning. I studied a lot this week. Really, I did. (Ignore that Facebook update that I talked about wasting time there–that was the only hour I didn’t study. Sort of.) In fact, I studied more than I ever really have in one week at college. If you haven’t noticed, I have never taken college really seriously. Now, that to some people means something different than it does to me–all I mean by that is the fact that it is not my highest priority. Lots of things are more important, or at least as important as, school for me. Don’t get me wrong, I WILL graduate. And probably on time. I just won’t have mostly A’s like the good old days of high school. There will be A’s, but also some B’s and maybe even… some C’s. Yes, it is true–I am easily satisfied with my college grades. This is beside my point….
Basically, this week was different. I spent a lot of time worrying about and studying for tests. And I did pretty stinking good on them. So I am proud of myself. I was going to continue this trend and stay on top of things for my classes next week by getting up this morning and being on campus in the library by eight or nine. Then I was going to study until my dance class this afternoon, because Friday mornings are heavenly and I don’t have work or school until 1:30. I was determined to do it.
And guess what? I woke up at seven and thought about things. Here is a peek at the internal dialogue going through my mind:
Good Me: ”It is 7:00. I need to get up and go to the library.”
Rebellious Me: ”No, you don’t. Stay here. Sleep some more.”
Good Me: ”While that sounds nice… the right thing to do is to get up and study. I am a changed person these days. I’m getting up.”
Rebellious Me: ”Hey remember how you only got four hours of sleep last night? And like five the night before?”
Good Me: ”Yes.”
Rebellious Me: …nods and smiles.
Good Me: ”Hmm.”
Rebellious Me: ”You have been so good this week. You deserve a small break. Sleep in. Don’t study. It’s Friday, for crying out loud.”
Good Me: ”I have been good…. It is Friday…. I am tired….”
Rebellious Me: ”Yes. You are so comfortable and warm. Go back to sleep.”
Good Me: ”Well… okay then.” …sleeps.
Rebellious Me wins. But Good Me wins too, because she got to go back to sleep. And then she didn’t get up until… shhhh… 10:30. And now she’s blogging instead of studying. And she’s not going to study even a little bit today. It’s Friday.
People can change, especially me. I sort of pride myself a little bit on that fact–that I really try to change and improve myself. But I also am allowed to be a little bit weak every once in a while. Right? I think so. This is not going to happen every Friday, but maybe every once in a while. Because I think that it’s nice to do nothing sometimes, even when you’ve got lots to do. Sometimes, you need a little break. I think I needed a little break.
the end.
7 comments
why is jack number 6?
Ok your blog is completely adorable! Love this list – I’m tempted to copy you. I had no idea you had a blog!
katie, it isn’t in any particular order… neither is it all-inclusive… :)
I figured, since I didn’t see MYSELF on it. Just kidding.
Haha… Buster. Oh man. I just laugh every time I think of him. Hahaha.
haha Buster from Arrested Development is my absolute favorite! I like this idea and I am totally going to copy you!
I love your lists, Kristin! I always want to do lists,but I never do.