I feel like there are two Kristins. Good Kristin and Bad Kristin. The good Kristin is happy and nice to people and generally pleasant to be around. She gives people the benefit of the doubt when someone does something that could be offensive and tries to not worry when she has a bad day.
But sometimes. . . something happens to entice the bad Kristin to the surface. Bad Kristin is easily offended. She thinks that everyone is ganging up on her and has collectively decided to be mean to her on the same day. She assumes the worst of people and doesn’t want anyone to talk to her. And the worst part?? She sort of even enjoys being mad.
Bad Kristin was visiting this week. I had a few awful days that tested my resolve — tested whether all these amazing things I’ve been learning over the last little while would actually be put into action when things got hard. Luckily, my bad self was only around for a couple days before I snapped out of it.
But it got me thinking about these two sides of me and wondering how to encourage the good self to stay around and the bad self to stay away. But I’m pretty sure I know the answer. Expect bad things to happen once in a while. When they do, remember what keeps me happy and balanced — having time to pray and ponder, eating healthy food, getting enough sleep, spending quality time with Kenny, having productive time working, and making time to relax. If I keep doing those things, even when I have an awful day or someone makes me mad, Good Kristin is bound to overpower Bad Kristin quickly.
I also maybe could remember that when it’s not easy to bounce back from the bad moods, watching Friends and eating a donut are perfect tools for the transition. :)
(Does my self portrait make sense?? You know. . . the two sides? Get it. . . ?)
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This post is part of my Project 52 for this year — a personal project where I take one self portrait each week that represents “life right now.” To read more about it, click here and to see all the past weeks in the series, click here.
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