.the year of love.

Dear Kenny,

Today is December 12th, 2009.

One year ago today, my life changed forEVER. Because that was the day I fell in love with you, Kenny Brown.

We had known each other for a few months. Our first date was only a week and a half earlier. I knew it sounded crazy to be in love so fast, but I also could not deny how I felt. Silly as it may sound to others, falling in love with you was a spiritual experience.

That weekend was wonderful--too wonderful to speak of with anyone but you. And now when we remember how we felt, we talk about it sort of reverently. And this weekend, we've been re-creating it and celebrating the best year of each of our lives.

I find it interesting to think about my life a year plus one day ago. This morning you said, "Would you ever have thought a year ago that we would be where we are right now?" And after a second of thought I said, "Depends on when you would have asked. If you would have asked me one year ago at 7:00 PM, I would have said something totally different that what I would have said at 11:00 PM." Our lives really did change that fast. And the next couple months brought wedding plans, deeper love, ecstatic joy, and long-awaited peacefulness about my life in general. The distinct feeling constantly running through me was that I had found HIM. That person that would change my life and my eternity. And oh how you have. :)

On December 15th, 2008, I wrote in my journal: "I know it's only been a week and a half. I know I should be scared. But I'm not. The only thing I'm afraid of is the fact that I'm not afraid. He is perfect for me and I am perfect for him. He is good where I am bad and I am good where he is bad. We fit..... I want to remember how I feel. I know I won't always remember everything we said that night, but I want to always always always remember the feeling I felt that night. It is amazing. I am in love."

Kenny, happy one year falling-in-love anniversary.

I love you more than ever.